How could I have been so oblivious for so long?! Obviously, there have been too many I's and Me's in my prayers. God put a lot of emphasis on helping and loving others, and to spread the word. But somehow, each time I read through it, I only applied messages that would affect my life by helping myself, not others. Shamefully, when I came to reading a passage that didn't benefit me emotionally, I would skip over it until I took what I wanted from it. Are a lot of us guilty of this? I don't know, but I will admit that I was. I never fully grasped the idea that it was meant to mold you for his purpose and not your own. His purpose, not your own. Let that marinate for a while. Maybe His message IS that simple, and maybe it is our flawed human tendencies that complicates everything. Today I am going to pray for help in opening my heart to others, and to give me the courage to step out in faith, to be used in any way that glorifies His word and His purpose. This was difficult for me to understand and to be blatantly open about it, but hey, it's not about me anymore. This is for His Glory.
October 25, 2011
Your purpose
Amy this, Amy that. As if the world and God revolves around my paralyzing existence. I was given some advice the other night. It seemed offensively simplistic and non-specific at first, as if any Joe off the street could use it. (But maybe that's the point, right?..) Knowing this made me feel insignificant and worthless, in a way. I spent my entire life waiting for God to tell me what my God-given purpose was, as if he laid down a golden road just for me to walk on. Anyway, here is what she told me: "God already told you what he wants. He wants you to spread the word and to help people." Pffft... That's nonsense, right? That is way too simple!!! I quickly shunned the idea and responded with: "You don't know what you're talking about! It's not that simple!" Then I continued to ramble on about God having a special purpose just for me, and I just knew it in my heart that he did. After a few minutes into my frustration, my heart began to shift. I knew she was right.
How could I have been so oblivious for so long?! Obviously, there have been too many I's and Me's in my prayers. God put a lot of emphasis on helping and loving others, and to spread the word. But somehow, each time I read through it, I only applied messages that would affect my life by helping myself, not others. Shamefully, when I came to reading a passage that didn't benefit me emotionally, I would skip over it until I took what I wanted from it. Are a lot of us guilty of this? I don't know, but I will admit that I was. I never fully grasped the idea that it was meant to mold you for his purpose and not your own. His purpose, not your own. Let that marinate for a while. Maybe His message IS that simple, and maybe it is our flawed human tendencies that complicates everything. Today I am going to pray for help in opening my heart to others, and to give me the courage to step out in faith, to be used in any way that glorifies His word and His purpose. This was difficult for me to understand and to be blatantly open about it, but hey, it's not about me anymore. This is for His Glory.
Word.
How could I have been so oblivious for so long?! Obviously, there have been too many I's and Me's in my prayers. God put a lot of emphasis on helping and loving others, and to spread the word. But somehow, each time I read through it, I only applied messages that would affect my life by helping myself, not others. Shamefully, when I came to reading a passage that didn't benefit me emotionally, I would skip over it until I took what I wanted from it. Are a lot of us guilty of this? I don't know, but I will admit that I was. I never fully grasped the idea that it was meant to mold you for his purpose and not your own. His purpose, not your own. Let that marinate for a while. Maybe His message IS that simple, and maybe it is our flawed human tendencies that complicates everything. Today I am going to pray for help in opening my heart to others, and to give me the courage to step out in faith, to be used in any way that glorifies His word and His purpose. This was difficult for me to understand and to be blatantly open about it, but hey, it's not about me anymore. This is for His Glory.
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