feels like i'm home again

"it feels like i'm born again. it feels like i'm living, for the very first time."


i remember this feeling like it was yesterday. He made His presence known to me, just long enough for me to crave it and need it on a daily basis. it was like feeding me the best steak in the world, and then turning it to salad – DO WHAT!?!

looking back through the beginning of my blogs, it has been nearly 2 years since i have both found him and lost him. i use the word "lost" very loosely, because really, i never lost him. he has never left my side.

i think god knew how to approach me.... like he knew that i couldn't be shaken and twisted too fast, it had to be gradual. It was a tender and loving type of tug-o-war. He has been in the background gently pushing and pulling at me, saying: “hey, I’m right here!” while staring at me and continuing with “why are you looking all around as if you don’t know I exist?” what I’ve failed to realize is that he loves unconditionally. I don’t think anyone could truly love unconditionally aside from god, because no one is capable of forgiving understanding as much as him. what would it feel like to him to have all your children not understand or know how much he loves us? We go through our day without ever acknowledging him and he still sits back and waits on you. God doesn’t push us into loving him, he just wants you to be honest and true about knowing he is there.

I’ll have to finish this later, chattttttsssssss are coming in!


These lryics describe it perfectly...